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Drunk on Words (Written September 18, 2014)

Drunk on Words


My journey has come to an end.

I’ve completed the circuit.

I’ve come home.


The house swims up close,

With its blaze of kitchen lights,

So bright I cover my eyes.


The door to the garage begins

Slowly, jerkily, to rise,

Inviting me in, but something


Holds me back. I sit there

A long time without moving.

For weeks, for months,


I’ve traveled the land, gathering

Impressions, discovering truths

About myself I never knew.


I had a rhythm to my day

Which I’ll be sad to give up.

Drunk on words, drunk


On the beauty of the line,

What will be left of me

When I’m done?

Born To This (Written September 17, 2014)

Born To This


In his own bedroom for the first time,

Lonely and unable to sleep,

He took a quick slug of what was left


In the bottle, because the drinking portion

Of his evening had come to an end.

Women are changing before everyone’s


Eyes, he said to himself, drunkenly.

Think about that change. Think about

What is happening in this room tonight.


He stood by the window, looking out

On the street. He had never seen

His street in the middle of the night.


The houses were dark and almost hidden

Behind the shaggy canopy of trees.

He was not angry with her, he was angry


With himself, because he could not stop

What he was doing. He had no reason

To be angry with her, she was perfectly


In the right. A small voice began to speak

Elsewhere in the apartment, but too softly,

Too distantly for him to hear. Tomorrow


Was his birthday. Had she completely

Forgotten? He dressed himself

In silks and satins. He was born to this.

Insects Can Defecate (Written September 16, 2014)

Insects Can Defecate


Being alive as long as we have,

We don’t feel it as much.

We sit around, mumbling


And complaining, or staring

Into space. A few of the women

And one or two men push their walkers


Up and down the halls. Wanderers,

We call them. The food is not bad,

I’ll say that, and the coffee.


Insects can defecate,

We learned that in biology.

They have intestinal tracts,


Anuses, and everything,

Just like us. The doctor

Comes once a week,


On Thursday. Life

Grinds you down,

Pounds you into submission.


Tuesday morning we have

Art class, and I wish

It was more often.


What I like is working

In color, and best of all

I don’t have to talk about it.


Sometimes, after supper,

A man plays the piano

And sings to us.


We gather around,

We smile and we clap,

But it’s never for long.

Perfectly Timed (Written September 15, 2014)

Perfectly Timed


I think he’s pleased,

The way he smiles at me

And keeps looking at me


With the wide, innocent

Eyes of a child, as if

There is so much more


He wants to tell me

But doesn’t know where to begin.

He knows he won’t be able


To find the words,

So he doesn’t even try.

I’ve kept the photo


All the years of our estrangement

To remind me of the good times

We once had, before things turned


Sour, and he left. It’s tangible proof

That I never stopped thinking of him,

Though we never spoke.


In the photo we’re standing on a beach,

His arm around my shoulder.

He’s very happy


And I’ve got my usual frown.

But this is the day, just before

Or just after the photo was snapped,


That we saw a fish hawk

Dive straight down out of the sky

And snare a trout.


It was so perfectly timed,

That dive, so quick, so efficient,

We never forgot.

His Heart’s Desire (Written September 14, 2014)

His Heart’s Desire


The glorious weather of late summer

Continued as if nothing had changed.

He felt alien, completely different,


Distant. Only very late at night,

When all motion had stopped,

Or was frozen, did he find rest.


The ache that had kept him awake

And put his resolve to the test,

Lifted a little, like early morning


Fog over a river, when the sun warms

The air. Something in him was fighting

For its life, but so silently, so distantly,


He felt he had nothing to do with it.

Barely a whisper, it fluttered somewhere

Near the back of his brain. What his body


Wanted was one thing, what he wanted

Was another. Like a leaf falling from a tree,

He felt detached from the mass of humanity.

I Haven’t Been the Same (Written September 13, 2014)

I Haven’t Been the Same


We have to go slow, I hope you don’t mind.

I haven’t been the same

Since the day of the accident.


The leg was pretty badly mangled.

I’m lucky to have it, they say.

I bit off the tip of the tongue,


And can’t help thinking it’s still there.

The worst thing is the lungs,

Which keep filling with fluid.


It feels like I’m drowning.

I spend most of my time in bed,

Or in a wheelchair.


Physio twice a week, which I hate.

All those repetitions!

So this is great.


Thank you for taking the trouble.

I’ll be back on my feet

In a couple of weeks.

The One for Me (Written September 12, 2014)

The One for Me


I stood by the roadside,

Waiting for someone

To give me a ride.


The cars roared by,

A little too close

For comfort.


It was late in the day,

And I was lost

In the glare of the sun.


I was leaving home,

Because nobody knew

Who I was anymore.


I hardly knew myself.

Every week or so

Someone would die,


And someone new

Would take their place.

We’d all sit around,


Mumbling and complaining,

Or staring into space.

I found it very hard


To get through the day,

Very hard to sleep at night.

But when I saw that car,


Coming closer all the time,

And ripping up the tar,

I knew it was the one for me.

I Must Not Do Anything (Written September 11, 2014)

I Must Not Do Anything


What I want is not to be in this box

Any longer. What I want is a way

To let her go, into whatever life she’s found.


After all these years she’s lost to me,

Perhaps forever. What is most profoundly

Hurtful is not knowing what happened to her,


Where she went that day, why she never came back.

I am waiting for her to come back. I search

For reasons, for answers, and there are none.


What I hope is that she is well, wherever

She is. One day, perhaps, she will phone

Or text me and tell me she loves me. Until then,


I must not do anything to hold her back,

And keep her from living the life she’s chosen.

When she calls, I will write it down, every word.

It’s Never Too Late (Written September 10, 2014)

It’s Never Too Late


She looks at the titles of the books I’ve brought,

And nods her approval. It’s never too late, she says,

To learn something new. I’ve never thought


Of myself as anything more than an average

Human being. As my body continues to fail me,

One organ at a time, I’ve sought compensation


In things of the mind, but when the mind begins

To fail me, what then? I find ways to disguise

My despair. I might pick up a book and pretend


To read. I might sit in the chair, with my eyes

Closed, and pretend to sleep. When it’s time

For her to go, I might stare out the window


And pretend I don’t care. I try to prevent

My gaze from falling to the swell of her breasts,

As she leans in to wish me good night.

The Great Divide (Written September 9, 2014)

The Great Divide


I seemed to have crossed some absolute divide.

Though I am still alive, or think I am,

I’m no longer part of the world I used to know.


Where before I was visible, now I am invisible.

No one comes to me and asks me what I think

About the important topics of the day.


It’s assumed that whatever I might have to say

Will be stale, out of date, and detached from reality.

I’m no longer part of the conversation.


I’m an ornament, no longer an active player

In the game of life. I sit in my chair and smile

As people approach and scowl as they go.


Even if someone did speak to me, it would be

A waste of their time, because I’m deaf in both  ears.

I keep a pad of paper with me in case someone


Wants to write me a note, but no one ever does.

And I smell of shit, but don’t tell anybody.

They’d get all in a snit, you know.