I Must Not Do Anything
What I want is not to be in this box
Any longer. What I want is a way
To let her go, into whatever life she’s found.
After all these years she’s lost to me,
Perhaps forever. What is most profoundly
Hurtful is not knowing what happened to her,
Where she went that day, why she never came back.
I am waiting for her to come back. I search
For reasons, for answers, and there are none.
What I hope is that she is well, wherever
She is. One day, perhaps, she will phone
Or text me and tell me she loves me. Until then,
I must not do anything to hold her back,
And keep her from living the life she’s chosen.
When she calls, I will write it down, every word.