You don’t think she was in love with him,
Do you? She was incapable of loving
Anyone, in her condition. She was like
A drowning woman, casting around
For a life-line. She couldn’t love
Somebody else because she was totally
Tied up in her own struggle to survive.
Think of the traumas she’d suffered,
Beginning when she learned that her husband
Had been cheating on her. Then he lost
Everything in a get-rich-quick scheme
And her support payments came to a sudden
And brutal end. Her only child disowned
Both his parents, and said he never wanted
To see them again. She was in a state of shock.
She thought she was in love, but she
Was fooling herself, and lying to the man.
What she liked about him is that he had
Money, power, and ambition. If there was
One thing she had not lost, it was her high
Opinion of herself. Your situation was nothing
Like hers. Sure, you had just left your lover,
Or she’d left you, I’m never quite sure which,
But you were not drowning, you were starting
Fresh. You knew what you wanted. You had
Your own business and a vision for the future.
I didn’t save you from anything. I found you.